A Tribute to Taylor

So obviously I've been MIA from my blog for a few weeks, and this evening won't be much of a change considering I have to wake up for work in 5.5 hours, but I thoughts I'd devote at least a few minutes of my time to releasing some pent-up angst I've developed thanks to one of my favorite artists.

I love Taylor Swift. I do. I totally adore her. And since her new album, Speak Now, hit stores two weeks ago, I've been unable to put anything else in my CD player. Most of her songs are about nothing original...finding love and losing it later...but I believe she is so amazingly talented at expressing emotion in song and I defy anyone to not be able to relate to at least one of her songs. The fact that she is gorgeous and comes off as one of the sweetest, most genuine people alive doesn't make me love her any less either.

There's just one problem. Taylor's songs never cease to remind me of The Ex. It's like a curse. I get so elated listening to her music and yet torn down by memories at the same time. I'd hoped it would end
with her last album because "Forever and Always" was impossible to listen to without thinking of him.

"You said Forever and Always...you didn't mean it baby"

But now Speak Now is out and there's a whole new list of songs that hurl me unwillingly down memory lane. From "Enchanted" that haunts me with thoughts of how I felt after our first date:

"This night is flawless, don't you let it go
I'm wonderstruck, blushing all the way home.
I'll spend forever, wondering if you knew
I was Enchanted to meet you"

To the endless lines of lyrics that remind me of the End and the Now:

"Stood there and watched you walk away from everything we had
But I still mean every word I say to you.
He will try and take away my pain, and he just might make me smile
But the whole time I'm wishing he was you instead."


"All that I know is I don't know
How to be something you miss..."


"So I'll watch your life in pictures like I used to watch you sleep
And I'll feel you forget me like I used to feel you breathe"

Oh Taylor, its painful how much I love you and how much you hurt me all at the same time. But all I can do is continue to listen to your CD on repeat, shout the lyrics alone in my car, and wait until the song I identify with most is "Sparks Fly."